"We See Broken God Sees Mended"

1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:07,000 This is Jimmy Nanette and we are coming to you from the heart, the soul, the spirit, 2 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:35,400 the center, the bulls eye of the Texas Hill Country where it is what we thought was, 3 00:00:35,400 --> 00:00:38,000 it started off as a beautiful day, did it not? 4 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:39,500 No, it was foggy, remember? 5 00:00:39,500 --> 00:00:40,500 Wait, oh yeah it was. 6 00:00:40,500 --> 00:00:41,500 That was today. 7 00:00:41,500 --> 00:00:43,400 But then it got warm this afternoon, lots of sunshine. 8 00:00:43,400 --> 00:00:45,400 But it was foggy as we were going to church. 9 00:00:45,400 --> 00:00:47,200 It was really foggy. 10 00:00:47,200 --> 00:00:51,400 We've actually had a very cool week in the Texas Hill Country, lots of rain which we 11 00:00:51,400 --> 00:00:52,400 need. 12 00:00:52,400 --> 00:00:54,200 I think winter and spring got mixed up. 13 00:00:54,200 --> 00:00:55,200 Totally confused. 14 00:00:55,200 --> 00:00:59,200 I mean like everything's green and coming alive and yet I'm looking out the window 15 00:00:59,200 --> 00:01:01,800 right now, it looks like it could rain any second. 16 00:01:01,800 --> 00:01:02,800 Exactly. 17 00:01:02,800 --> 00:01:04,800 I mean we need the rain, that's great, thank you Jesus. 18 00:01:04,800 --> 00:01:11,800 However, oh Chevy just fell out of his chair introducing Chevy in a very clumsy moment. 19 00:01:11,800 --> 00:01:13,800 He literally fell. 20 00:01:13,800 --> 00:01:15,200 He literally fell. 21 00:01:15,200 --> 00:01:16,800 Are you alright there good buddy? 22 00:01:16,800 --> 00:01:18,800 Poor baby, are you okay? 23 00:01:18,800 --> 00:01:21,800 He's so unfazed by anything. 24 00:01:21,800 --> 00:01:23,800 He's like looking me like, thank you for picking me up. 25 00:01:23,800 --> 00:01:27,800 Our other dog that now lives with our daughter Faith, because Faith has her own apartment 26 00:01:27,800 --> 00:01:32,400 now, she would be like traumatized for a day and a half if she just slipped out of her 27 00:01:32,400 --> 00:01:33,400 chair. 28 00:01:33,400 --> 00:01:34,400 She's very neurotic. 29 00:01:34,400 --> 00:01:35,400 Chevy's like, oh who cares. 30 00:01:35,400 --> 00:01:36,400 Chevy's like, yeah whatever, just pet me. 31 00:01:36,400 --> 00:01:38,600 Make you back up in your lap. 32 00:01:38,600 --> 00:01:40,700 So it's been really weird weather. 33 00:01:40,700 --> 00:01:42,200 This last week is actually cool. 34 00:01:42,200 --> 00:01:47,320 I mean we're wearing sweaters again and we're like, hey what happened to spring? 35 00:01:47,320 --> 00:01:48,400 It was teasing us. 36 00:01:48,400 --> 00:01:49,400 It really was. 37 00:01:49,400 --> 00:01:50,400 I'm ready. 38 00:01:50,400 --> 00:01:51,400 I've got spring fever I think. 39 00:01:51,400 --> 00:01:52,400 I know, I do too. 40 00:01:52,400 --> 00:01:53,400 I need some time off. 41 00:01:53,400 --> 00:01:56,400 Can I have some time off? 42 00:01:56,400 --> 00:01:57,400 Yeah, sure. 43 00:01:57,400 --> 00:01:58,400 Go ahead, whatever. 44 00:01:58,400 --> 00:02:00,120 You're the executive pastor. 45 00:02:00,120 --> 00:02:02,120 You order yourself. 46 00:02:02,120 --> 00:02:05,000 Last night I was just like, Lord it's time. 47 00:02:05,000 --> 00:02:07,480 I need some down time. 48 00:02:07,480 --> 00:02:08,480 This week. 49 00:02:08,480 --> 00:02:09,480 Why are we tired? 50 00:02:09,480 --> 00:02:12,040 Well this week has been, I mean holy week. 51 00:02:12,040 --> 00:02:13,400 Getting ready for Easter. 52 00:02:13,400 --> 00:02:14,400 Yeah. 53 00:02:14,400 --> 00:02:20,800 Praying for not just the people to come into church, but the people to come to a saving 54 00:02:20,800 --> 00:02:22,480 knowledge of Jesus Christ. 55 00:02:22,480 --> 00:02:23,480 And so it's heavy. 56 00:02:23,480 --> 00:02:24,480 It is. 57 00:02:24,480 --> 00:02:25,480 It's emotional. 58 00:02:25,480 --> 00:02:28,880 I heard someone say this is the Super Bowl. 59 00:02:28,880 --> 00:02:30,240 The Super Bowl for Christians. 60 00:02:30,240 --> 00:02:33,080 It's Holy Week and of course Easter weekend. 61 00:02:33,080 --> 00:02:35,720 I'm like, yeah I don't really buy into the hype of that. 62 00:02:35,720 --> 00:02:39,560 We have no Budweiser or Coors commercials happening in our church. 63 00:02:39,560 --> 00:02:42,280 So it's not like to us, it's not hype. 64 00:02:42,280 --> 00:02:47,880 It's more about every day's Easter, every day's Christmas when you're a follower of 65 00:02:47,880 --> 00:02:50,640 Christ and you're engaged in an ongoing relationship. 66 00:02:50,640 --> 00:02:51,640 Would you agree? 67 00:02:51,640 --> 00:02:52,640 Right. 68 00:02:52,640 --> 00:02:59,520 And for Easter, for churches, that's typically when you could double your attendance. 69 00:02:59,520 --> 00:03:02,240 And you're not wanting to double so that you'll have more people. 70 00:03:02,240 --> 00:03:03,960 At least we aren't. 71 00:03:03,960 --> 00:03:09,920 I want people that are on fire for God or want to grow in their relationship with God. 72 00:03:09,920 --> 00:03:14,040 And so I could care less how many people we have on an Easter Sunday. 73 00:03:14,040 --> 00:03:16,160 The next Sunday could be a lot lower. 74 00:03:16,160 --> 00:03:22,340 I want to see people growing in their faith or coming to know Him for the first time. 75 00:03:22,340 --> 00:03:24,680 That is so important. 76 00:03:24,680 --> 00:03:26,720 So much more important than the numbers you have. 77 00:03:26,720 --> 00:03:27,720 Right. 78 00:03:27,720 --> 00:03:28,720 We're very thankful. 79 00:03:28,720 --> 00:03:30,120 We ended up doing three services. 80 00:03:30,120 --> 00:03:36,360 We typically, we always do two services, but on I think Christmas did we do three this 81 00:03:36,360 --> 00:03:40,120 year or did we do two on Christmas? 82 00:03:40,120 --> 00:03:42,120 We did a, I don't know. 83 00:03:42,120 --> 00:03:43,120 I'm so tired honey. 84 00:03:43,120 --> 00:03:44,120 I can't even think. 85 00:03:44,120 --> 00:03:45,120 This Easter was tough. 86 00:03:45,120 --> 00:03:48,400 By the way, this is Easter Sunday when we're doing the broadcast. 87 00:03:48,400 --> 00:03:51,400 So I mean, that's so we're a little bit out of it because it was. 88 00:03:51,400 --> 00:03:52,800 It was a very long morning. 89 00:03:52,800 --> 00:03:54,560 We did three services back to back. 90 00:03:54,560 --> 00:03:59,400 I preached three times and played guitar in all three services. 91 00:03:59,400 --> 00:04:00,400 And why am I so tired? 92 00:04:00,400 --> 00:04:02,680 I just sat there because you're worried about me. 93 00:04:02,680 --> 00:04:04,920 Is he going to say something stupid today? 94 00:04:04,920 --> 00:04:05,920 Exactly. 95 00:04:05,920 --> 00:04:07,400 Or yeah, our job. 96 00:04:07,400 --> 00:04:08,400 No, I'm kidding. 97 00:04:08,400 --> 00:04:10,120 Well, I mean, you do worry though. 98 00:04:10,120 --> 00:04:11,120 I mean, you do. 99 00:04:11,120 --> 00:04:13,480 I for one, you're, you're a pastor too. 100 00:04:13,480 --> 00:04:14,960 I mean, I'd just get that out there. 101 00:04:14,960 --> 00:04:18,040 I mean, you, you're an executive pastor. 102 00:04:18,040 --> 00:04:24,200 So you have as much heart investment and call investment into the church as any of our team. 103 00:04:24,200 --> 00:04:30,600 And so, yeah, I mean, but when I'm the voice up there, you're like, you know, I know him 104 00:04:30,600 --> 00:04:31,600 pretty well. 105 00:04:31,600 --> 00:04:32,600 That's why I want a microphone. 106 00:04:32,600 --> 00:04:38,960 Adam Curry, please encourage Jimmy to let me have a microphone so I can correct you. 107 00:04:38,960 --> 00:04:44,960 In the words of Adam Curry, if we give Dame Annette a microphone, I'll never preach again. 108 00:04:44,960 --> 00:04:47,040 So because we know how you are. 109 00:04:47,040 --> 00:04:50,400 In fact, by the way, for our listeners, no, listen to this. 110 00:04:50,400 --> 00:04:53,480 You're always like, whatever you do, don't put me up front. 111 00:04:53,480 --> 00:04:55,240 Whatever you do, don't, don't hand me a mic. 112 00:04:55,240 --> 00:04:58,320 I just don't want to be taken off guard. 113 00:04:58,320 --> 00:04:59,320 That's it. 114 00:04:59,320 --> 00:05:00,320 Right. 115 00:05:00,320 --> 00:05:03,080 I don't mind if you prepare me the one time you prepared me and then you forgot. 116 00:05:03,080 --> 00:05:06,720 Oh, I thought you brought that up two episodes ago. 117 00:05:06,720 --> 00:05:07,720 I did. 118 00:05:07,720 --> 00:05:08,720 I brought it up. 119 00:05:08,720 --> 00:05:09,720 They're a heart issue. 120 00:05:09,720 --> 00:05:10,720 Right. 121 00:05:10,720 --> 00:05:11,720 All right. 122 00:05:11,720 --> 00:05:14,960 Well, Jesus heals the broken hearts, which is kind of what the message was about today. 123 00:05:14,960 --> 00:05:16,600 I needed that message. 124 00:05:16,600 --> 00:05:17,600 It's not. 125 00:05:17,600 --> 00:05:18,600 Me too. 126 00:05:18,600 --> 00:05:19,600 So let me just say this. 127 00:05:19,600 --> 00:05:20,600 I'll get it out there. 128 00:05:20,600 --> 00:05:21,600 Yesterday. 129 00:05:21,600 --> 00:05:22,600 That's what we're here for. 130 00:05:22,600 --> 00:05:23,600 We had a wonderful time with Adam and Tina. 131 00:05:23,600 --> 00:05:25,640 We went and saw the movie, His Only Son. 132 00:05:25,640 --> 00:05:27,280 Yes, which was good. 133 00:05:27,280 --> 00:05:28,280 Not great, but it was good. 134 00:05:28,280 --> 00:05:29,280 But it was good. 135 00:05:29,280 --> 00:05:31,600 And we want to support those who are doing Christian movies. 136 00:05:31,600 --> 00:05:33,160 We want to invest in them. 137 00:05:33,160 --> 00:05:34,160 Because we want more. 138 00:05:34,160 --> 00:05:35,160 Yes, absolutely. 139 00:05:35,160 --> 00:05:42,400 And the more funds that they receive, the better actors and so forth they'll have. 140 00:05:42,400 --> 00:05:44,720 Well, we went and we had a great time with them. 141 00:05:44,720 --> 00:05:45,720 It was lovely. 142 00:05:45,720 --> 00:05:47,160 We had dinner with them. 143 00:05:47,160 --> 00:05:49,920 They came over for drinks and dessert. 144 00:05:49,920 --> 00:05:51,240 We had dessert already. 145 00:05:51,240 --> 00:05:52,240 And then they leave. 146 00:05:52,240 --> 00:05:53,460 We had some vino. 147 00:05:53,460 --> 00:05:54,460 We did. 148 00:05:54,460 --> 00:05:55,460 It was good. 149 00:05:55,460 --> 00:05:56,460 Well, yes, it was good. 150 00:05:56,460 --> 00:05:57,460 Grape Creek. 151 00:05:57,460 --> 00:05:58,460 Yes. 152 00:05:58,460 --> 00:06:02,960 But as soon as I left, I had a meltdown. 153 00:06:02,960 --> 00:06:03,960 I know. 154 00:06:03,960 --> 00:06:07,080 I saw it on your face. 155 00:06:07,080 --> 00:06:09,360 And I couldn't understand what was going on. 156 00:06:09,360 --> 00:06:12,960 But I just started to feel, you know, when we were talking a few weeks ago, a couple 157 00:06:12,960 --> 00:06:18,720 weeks ago about what plays in your mind, the records that play. 158 00:06:18,720 --> 00:06:19,720 The tapes. 159 00:06:19,720 --> 00:06:20,720 The tapes. 160 00:06:20,720 --> 00:06:21,720 The records. 161 00:06:21,720 --> 00:06:22,720 I'm aging myself. 162 00:06:22,720 --> 00:06:28,480 But the tapes, the DVDs or whatever you want to say that play in your mind. 163 00:06:28,480 --> 00:06:32,120 And that started going through my mind so bad. 164 00:06:32,120 --> 00:06:35,000 And I mean, it was bad. 165 00:06:35,000 --> 00:06:39,160 I was crying. 166 00:06:39,160 --> 00:06:42,920 All these things were coming out of my mouth that, well, I don't know if I actually saw 167 00:06:42,920 --> 00:06:43,920 it. 168 00:06:43,920 --> 00:06:44,920 More in your mind. 169 00:06:44,920 --> 00:06:45,920 More in my mind. 170 00:06:45,920 --> 00:06:46,920 Because you weren't saying anything out loud. 171 00:06:46,920 --> 00:06:47,920 You asked me what was wrong. 172 00:06:47,920 --> 00:06:50,160 And I just briefly shared because I didn't want to. 173 00:06:50,160 --> 00:06:51,440 Because husbands know. 174 00:06:51,440 --> 00:06:52,440 Right. 175 00:06:52,440 --> 00:06:53,440 But you didn't know fully. 176 00:06:53,440 --> 00:06:56,600 No, I didn't know what was going on. 177 00:06:56,600 --> 00:06:57,600 Something was buzzing in your head. 178 00:06:57,600 --> 00:06:58,720 And I knew that. 179 00:06:58,720 --> 00:06:59,720 It was. 180 00:06:59,720 --> 00:07:05,760 I think what's hard for me is every, and I hate saying this because it sounds like, 181 00:07:05,760 --> 00:07:08,000 well, then now it's going to happen every year. 182 00:07:08,000 --> 00:07:15,960 But every year in the past, I've had depression try to hit me around my birthday. 183 00:07:15,960 --> 00:07:16,960 Right. 184 00:07:16,960 --> 00:07:21,240 I think it has to do with something that happened with my ex-husband back in the day. 185 00:07:21,240 --> 00:07:22,760 But I can't pinpoint it. 186 00:07:22,760 --> 00:07:27,760 All I know is the aging process is very hard on me. 187 00:07:27,760 --> 00:07:32,760 And I just turn that age that I don't even want to say. 188 00:07:32,760 --> 00:07:33,880 I wish I had. 189 00:07:33,880 --> 00:07:34,880 It's hard. 190 00:07:34,880 --> 00:07:35,880 Well, I'll keep it to myself. 191 00:07:35,880 --> 00:07:36,880 OK. 192 00:07:36,880 --> 00:07:37,880 Keep it to yourself. 193 00:07:37,880 --> 00:07:38,880 I'm not going to say it. 194 00:07:38,880 --> 00:07:39,880 I'm not going to say it. 195 00:07:39,880 --> 00:07:40,880 I'm going to be nice. 196 00:07:40,880 --> 00:07:41,880 It's OK. 197 00:07:41,880 --> 00:07:42,880 I'm in a good mood. 198 00:07:42,880 --> 00:07:47,240 I'm having a hard time. 199 00:07:47,240 --> 00:07:50,560 And so it hit me last night after they left. 200 00:07:50,560 --> 00:07:52,040 And I laid in bed. 201 00:07:52,040 --> 00:07:55,120 And I literally, I could have had a cry fest. 202 00:07:55,120 --> 00:07:56,880 I started to cry. 203 00:07:56,880 --> 00:07:57,880 I heard it. 204 00:07:57,880 --> 00:07:59,040 I could tell. 205 00:07:59,040 --> 00:08:00,040 And I decided. 206 00:08:00,040 --> 00:08:01,040 I was eavesdropping. 207 00:08:01,040 --> 00:08:02,040 I know. 208 00:08:02,040 --> 00:08:09,320 But there was one thing I've never done ever when this has happened. 209 00:08:09,320 --> 00:08:12,320 I was laying down in bed when it happened. 210 00:08:12,320 --> 00:08:14,720 And I got the version Bible out. 211 00:08:14,720 --> 00:08:19,280 And I just started reading scripture after scripture after scripture. 212 00:08:19,280 --> 00:08:23,520 Because I really felt like, and what I did was I took one of my devotions. 213 00:08:23,520 --> 00:08:25,320 I'm doing the devotion. 214 00:08:25,320 --> 00:08:26,320 What's it called? 215 00:08:26,320 --> 00:08:27,320 Let's see. 216 00:08:27,320 --> 00:08:28,320 You're doing several. 217 00:08:28,320 --> 00:08:29,320 Well, I am. 218 00:08:29,320 --> 00:08:34,080 But this one particular this week is called Easter Explained. 219 00:08:34,080 --> 00:08:37,640 And it's eight day guide to celebrating the Holy Week. 220 00:08:37,640 --> 00:08:40,680 So I went through. 221 00:08:40,680 --> 00:08:42,120 I'm really shocked that I did this. 222 00:08:42,120 --> 00:08:44,960 I'm really proud of myself that I did this. 223 00:08:44,960 --> 00:08:50,480 But I went through every scripture for six days, which was a lot. 224 00:08:50,480 --> 00:08:54,420 I mean, there were some that was a whole chapters were. 225 00:08:54,420 --> 00:09:00,400 And so for about an hour, I made myself read every scripture because you can't cry and 226 00:09:00,400 --> 00:09:01,400 read at the same time. 227 00:09:01,400 --> 00:09:02,920 I kept looking over at you. 228 00:09:02,920 --> 00:09:03,920 So this is a guy. 229 00:09:03,920 --> 00:09:04,920 This is a husband wife thing. 230 00:09:04,920 --> 00:09:07,640 And those of you that are married, get this. 231 00:09:07,640 --> 00:09:11,000 You always know when your spouse is struggling, you know, there's something going on. 232 00:09:11,000 --> 00:09:12,000 They won't talk about it. 233 00:09:12,000 --> 00:09:14,960 Of course, as a dude, I'm like, what I do, what I do. 234 00:09:14,960 --> 00:09:17,120 And I said, this doesn't have anything to do with you. 235 00:09:17,120 --> 00:09:19,280 Independent Jimmy's like, did I do something? 236 00:09:19,280 --> 00:09:20,280 Did I mess up? 237 00:09:20,280 --> 00:09:21,280 Did I not say something? 238 00:09:21,280 --> 00:09:22,280 Did I say something? 239 00:09:22,280 --> 00:09:23,280 Did I? 240 00:09:23,280 --> 00:09:25,560 And so that's so me centric. 241 00:09:25,560 --> 00:09:29,240 So codependent, very pathetic. 242 00:09:29,240 --> 00:09:30,960 But it's there's a flip side of that. 243 00:09:30,960 --> 00:09:34,560 And really is because I genuinely care about what's going on in your heart and in your 244 00:09:34,560 --> 00:09:35,560 mind. 245 00:09:35,560 --> 00:09:36,560 It's what a husband does. 246 00:09:36,560 --> 00:09:37,560 We care. 247 00:09:37,560 --> 00:09:39,720 So as you're over there, I was like, are you okay? 248 00:09:39,720 --> 00:09:40,720 What are you reading? 249 00:09:40,720 --> 00:09:43,640 Because you were man, whatever you're reading, you were into. 250 00:09:43,640 --> 00:09:46,120 So I was because scripture was a Bible. 251 00:09:46,120 --> 00:09:50,360 And I couldn't tell you what I was reading because I literally was reading through different 252 00:09:50,360 --> 00:09:52,040 chapters, different books. 253 00:09:52,040 --> 00:09:58,120 And I realized when I started reading, I was really crying. 254 00:09:58,120 --> 00:10:04,240 But as I started going through the scriptures, after a few minutes, I couldn't cry anymore. 255 00:10:04,240 --> 00:10:06,320 All I could do is read. 256 00:10:06,320 --> 00:10:12,640 And I was reading so much about what happened with Jesus on the holy at the holy week. 257 00:10:12,640 --> 00:10:21,760 And my I went from this feeling sorry for myself to compassion for Jesus. 258 00:10:21,760 --> 00:10:26,040 And I totally turned I did not go to sleep crying like I have in the past. 259 00:10:26,040 --> 00:10:28,080 So all right, there's a couple of things there. 260 00:10:28,080 --> 00:10:31,520 Because when you bring that up, that just my mind just goes off in several things. 261 00:10:31,520 --> 00:10:37,440 But first of all, to the ladies that are listening to the podcast, I want you can you address 262 00:10:37,440 --> 00:10:40,120 them because they get what you're saying? 263 00:10:40,120 --> 00:10:44,400 They've I mean, we go through these emotions. 264 00:10:44,400 --> 00:10:45,400 You know, it's triggered. 265 00:10:45,400 --> 00:10:46,400 They do. 266 00:10:46,400 --> 00:10:48,480 We have triggers for some reason my birthday. 267 00:10:48,480 --> 00:10:50,200 But you know what was interesting? 268 00:10:50,200 --> 00:10:52,440 My birthday was a week ago. 269 00:10:52,440 --> 00:10:55,320 And usually it's on my birthday or the week before. 270 00:10:55,320 --> 00:10:57,320 This time it was a week after. 271 00:10:57,320 --> 00:10:59,040 So I thought we were through that. 272 00:10:59,040 --> 00:11:00,040 I did too. 273 00:11:00,040 --> 00:11:01,040 We made it. 274 00:11:01,040 --> 00:11:05,920 And when those recordings started to play crazy, it's not crazy. 275 00:11:05,920 --> 00:11:07,400 It's well, it's the enemy. 276 00:11:07,400 --> 00:11:14,200 I think you get around people like Adam and Tina, who I just think are the best, literally 277 00:11:14,200 --> 00:11:16,280 the best people I've ever met in my life. 278 00:11:16,280 --> 00:11:19,320 I had never met anybody like them. 279 00:11:19,320 --> 00:11:22,360 And they're beautiful and they're tall and they're gorgeous. 280 00:11:22,360 --> 00:11:23,360 So much Adam. 281 00:11:23,360 --> 00:11:24,360 Tina is pretty. 282 00:11:24,360 --> 00:11:25,360 Sorry, Adam. 283 00:11:25,360 --> 00:11:29,360 I had to throw a shot in there, brother. 284 00:11:29,360 --> 00:11:32,840 I literally just I think I just went inward. 285 00:11:32,840 --> 00:11:37,680 You know, I went into a bad place like, well, you'll never, you know, amount to anything. 286 00:11:37,680 --> 00:11:39,440 You won't you don't look like them. 287 00:11:39,440 --> 00:11:41,680 You'll never, you know, you don't have to. 288 00:11:41,680 --> 00:11:42,680 Are you kidding? 289 00:11:42,680 --> 00:11:43,680 I know. 290 00:11:43,680 --> 00:11:44,680 Can you believe that? 291 00:11:44,680 --> 00:11:45,680 I'm looking at you across the desk. 292 00:11:45,680 --> 00:11:46,680 Oh, my gosh. 293 00:11:46,680 --> 00:11:47,680 Stop. 294 00:11:47,680 --> 00:11:48,680 But it. 295 00:11:48,680 --> 00:11:49,680 Wow. 296 00:11:49,680 --> 00:11:54,640 I think the enemy just loves to play those tapes that are so I mean, we're talking from 297 00:11:54,640 --> 00:11:57,520 years and years in the past. 298 00:11:57,520 --> 00:12:01,400 Nothing that has happened in in the present. 299 00:12:01,400 --> 00:12:02,920 It's all from the past. 300 00:12:02,920 --> 00:12:06,040 OK, but this is what I love, Jimmy. 301 00:12:06,040 --> 00:12:07,720 So I share with you last night. 302 00:12:07,720 --> 00:12:09,000 Yes, I'm having a hard time. 303 00:12:09,000 --> 00:12:11,920 I'm having a woman moment. 304 00:12:11,920 --> 00:12:15,560 I feel this, this, this. 305 00:12:15,560 --> 00:12:16,560 Get in the word. 306 00:12:16,560 --> 00:12:17,560 But you didn't say all that. 307 00:12:17,560 --> 00:12:18,560 No. 308 00:12:18,560 --> 00:12:19,560 I did say a little bit. 309 00:12:19,560 --> 00:12:20,560 You left me guessing. 310 00:12:20,560 --> 00:12:21,560 I did say a little bit. 311 00:12:21,560 --> 00:12:22,560 I get it. 312 00:12:22,560 --> 00:12:24,760 I didn't need to say much because I literally didn't want it out in the air. 313 00:12:24,760 --> 00:12:26,200 The dude would like to hear more. 314 00:12:26,200 --> 00:12:27,200 But that's OK. 315 00:12:27,200 --> 00:12:28,200 No, seriously. 316 00:12:28,200 --> 00:12:29,200 I appreciate it. 317 00:12:29,200 --> 00:12:30,200 Also, I didn't want to continue crying. 318 00:12:30,200 --> 00:12:31,720 I knew I'd be all puffy. 319 00:12:31,720 --> 00:12:32,920 I'd be tired this morning. 320 00:12:32,920 --> 00:12:33,920 I had a long day. 321 00:12:33,920 --> 00:12:35,600 I know it's a woman thing. 322 00:12:35,600 --> 00:12:43,360 So but, you know, I get up, I go to church and I'm thinking, OK, I'm good. 323 00:12:43,360 --> 00:12:45,240 At least I got the word in me. 324 00:12:45,240 --> 00:12:46,820 I feel good. 325 00:12:46,820 --> 00:12:51,800 And then you switched the sermon and it was for me. 326 00:12:51,800 --> 00:12:53,080 And you didn't tell me. 327 00:12:53,080 --> 00:12:59,160 You told me and you mentioned to Adam and Tina that you totally switched gears, that 328 00:12:59,160 --> 00:13:04,240 on Saturday morning you woke up at 4, 430 in the morning and you felt like the Lord told 329 00:13:04,240 --> 00:13:07,200 you don't preach this, preach this. 330 00:13:07,200 --> 00:13:08,480 You totally changed it. 331 00:13:08,480 --> 00:13:12,800 And I asked you when we were with Tina and Adam and you said, I'm not telling you, you 332 00:13:12,800 --> 00:13:14,680 need to wait till tomorrow. 333 00:13:14,680 --> 00:13:16,320 I couldn't believe it. 334 00:13:16,320 --> 00:13:25,520 When you preached the message on, we see our brokenness, God sees our mending. 335 00:13:25,520 --> 00:13:27,920 Yeah, it's a line from a song. 336 00:13:27,920 --> 00:13:30,960 We see broken, God sees mended. 337 00:13:30,960 --> 00:13:34,200 I literally lost it inside. 338 00:13:34,200 --> 00:13:35,200 That's wild. 339 00:13:35,200 --> 00:13:36,280 I just was like. 340 00:13:36,280 --> 00:13:38,480 Because I literally did not know what was going on. 341 00:13:38,480 --> 00:13:41,520 No, because it was last night and what happened was the night before. 342 00:13:41,520 --> 00:13:43,560 You wouldn't talk about it because you didn't want to mess up. 343 00:13:43,560 --> 00:13:44,560 No, I wanted you to be. 344 00:13:44,560 --> 00:13:48,760 I was getting ready to preach and you were being gentle. 345 00:13:48,760 --> 00:13:52,720 I still knew you were a little bit off, but you seemed better. 346 00:13:52,720 --> 00:13:57,080 But I had no idea what you were struggling with in your heart. 347 00:13:57,080 --> 00:14:02,600 The Lord woke me up and I say the Lord because I don't normally wake up early. 348 00:14:02,600 --> 00:14:07,520 Well, you don't wake up to change a message that you had prepared for weeks. 349 00:14:07,520 --> 00:14:08,520 I mean literally weeks. 350 00:14:08,520 --> 00:14:13,080 I've been working on this, doing some deep dive study about the crucifixion. 351 00:14:13,080 --> 00:14:19,200 I had some great Lee Strobel quotes about the crucifixion and the reality of it. 352 00:14:19,200 --> 00:14:23,840 I wanted it to be a full on Easter while it's celebrate. 353 00:14:23,840 --> 00:14:25,880 We had been seeing movies about Easter. 354 00:14:25,880 --> 00:14:28,400 We watched Risen, we watched His Only Son. 355 00:14:28,400 --> 00:14:31,960 There was another one, we watched The Thieves on the Cross with Jonathan Rumi. 356 00:14:31,960 --> 00:14:35,200 So we had watched a bunch of movies that really fed into you. 357 00:14:35,200 --> 00:14:36,200 Really want to talk about the crucifixion. 358 00:14:36,200 --> 00:14:38,360 And some documentaries that were just amazing. 359 00:14:38,360 --> 00:14:39,360 And the resurrection. 360 00:14:39,360 --> 00:14:44,680 We were doing a lot of study to prepare for this Sunday and then all of a sudden God says, 361 00:14:44,680 --> 00:14:46,800 nope, I don't even want you to preach on that. 362 00:14:46,800 --> 00:14:47,800 I was wrestling. 363 00:14:47,800 --> 00:14:50,760 When I went to bed on Friday night, I was wrestling with it. 364 00:14:50,760 --> 00:14:56,120 I'm really glad now that you didn't tell me because I think my mouth was probably open 365 00:14:56,120 --> 00:14:58,280 the whole time you were preaching first service. 366 00:14:58,280 --> 00:15:00,560 Of course, I heard it first, second and third service. 367 00:15:00,560 --> 00:15:01,560 Three times. 368 00:15:01,560 --> 00:15:03,240 Maybe it takes that much for me to get it. 369 00:15:03,240 --> 00:15:05,120 Three times or what do they say? 370 00:15:05,120 --> 00:15:06,120 Is it charm? 371 00:15:06,120 --> 00:15:12,320 But I literally felt like you said God told me to do this and this is for someone out 372 00:15:12,320 --> 00:15:15,320 there and I thought, wow, for your own wife? 373 00:15:15,320 --> 00:15:16,600 Really? 374 00:15:16,600 --> 00:15:20,840 Because I literally needed to hear what you said. 375 00:15:20,840 --> 00:15:28,080 Even though I know it intuitively, there's just something about hearing it in that setting. 376 00:15:28,080 --> 00:15:38,120 There's just areas that we believe that God has healed but sometimes there's just a little 377 00:15:38,120 --> 00:15:40,960 crack, a little open door that happens. 378 00:15:40,960 --> 00:15:43,280 I call that residue. 379 00:15:43,280 --> 00:15:47,800 The issue's not there in your face all the time like it was in the past because you've 380 00:15:47,800 --> 00:15:48,800 gotten healed. 381 00:15:48,800 --> 00:15:50,920 But there's still scars. 382 00:15:50,920 --> 00:15:51,920 There's still residue. 383 00:15:51,920 --> 00:15:56,600 I had a scar on the bottom of my arm where I got cut badly. 384 00:15:56,600 --> 00:16:01,080 And for years, even though the scar healed over, if I ever accidentally bumped that spot 385 00:16:01,080 --> 00:16:07,320 like on the edge of a desk or anything, I'd just put my arm down on the table ronk, it 386 00:16:07,320 --> 00:16:09,040 would remind me that there was a wound. 387 00:16:09,040 --> 00:16:10,040 It would bleed again. 388 00:16:10,040 --> 00:16:11,040 It wouldn't bleed. 389 00:16:11,040 --> 00:16:12,040 It was just hurt. 390 00:16:12,040 --> 00:16:13,040 Sometimes. 391 00:16:13,040 --> 00:16:14,040 No, no, no. 392 00:16:14,040 --> 00:16:15,040 This is the one that was completely healed over. 393 00:16:15,040 --> 00:16:16,040 Not the scar. 394 00:16:16,040 --> 00:16:17,040 It was gone. 395 00:16:17,040 --> 00:16:18,040 It was just a scar. 396 00:16:18,040 --> 00:16:19,040 But it was sensitive. 397 00:16:19,040 --> 00:16:20,040 Now, it's not anymore. 398 00:16:20,040 --> 00:16:22,840 All these years, low these many years, it's not now. 399 00:16:22,840 --> 00:16:27,240 But it reminded me and it was like, I'm still here. 400 00:16:27,240 --> 00:16:32,640 And I think sometimes some of the things that we get healed from spiritually and emotionally, 401 00:16:32,640 --> 00:16:34,160 you bump the wrong thing. 402 00:16:34,160 --> 00:16:35,520 That's like a trigger. 403 00:16:35,520 --> 00:16:37,720 And it reminds you, wait, I'm still here. 404 00:16:37,720 --> 00:16:41,600 And you're like, well, you're still here, but you're not as strong as you used to be. 405 00:16:41,600 --> 00:16:43,480 And I'm not who I used to be. 406 00:16:43,480 --> 00:16:45,400 So I'm beginning to heal. 407 00:16:45,400 --> 00:16:46,400 It is a process. 408 00:16:46,400 --> 00:16:51,080 Wouldn't you love it if God just, we prayed, snap our fingers. 409 00:16:51,080 --> 00:16:52,680 Sorry, I got Chevy all. 410 00:16:52,680 --> 00:16:54,400 When I snap my fingers, the signal for Chevy. 411 00:16:54,400 --> 00:16:56,400 So he just jumps up like, okay, let's go. 412 00:16:56,400 --> 00:16:58,000 Where are we going? 413 00:16:58,000 --> 00:17:03,880 But anyway, wouldn't it be great if when we prayed and we said, Lord, we need you to heal 414 00:17:03,880 --> 00:17:10,600 this broken piece in my life or this memory or this trauma, wouldn't it be cool in a perfect 415 00:17:10,600 --> 00:17:17,360 world if God just snapped his fingers and we were instantly healed and never felt another 416 00:17:17,360 --> 00:17:21,680 never felt a trigger or residue or echo of the past. 417 00:17:21,680 --> 00:17:24,800 But for those of you listening, I understand. 418 00:17:24,800 --> 00:17:32,180 Well, I think, you know, Paul had a thorn in his flesh that he had to live with. 419 00:17:32,180 --> 00:17:36,440 And I almost feel like this is the thorn in my flesh that I have to overcome though. 420 00:17:36,440 --> 00:17:46,200 I can't allow it to take root in my life and render me unable, you know, helpless because 421 00:17:46,200 --> 00:17:47,360 it's it. 422 00:17:47,360 --> 00:17:48,600 This is serious. 423 00:17:48,600 --> 00:17:54,200 It really is serious when it gets to the point to where you just, you know, you're like, 424 00:17:54,200 --> 00:18:00,800 Lord, you really need to intervene because I don't know how much more I can take. 425 00:18:00,800 --> 00:18:02,080 So I have a verse for that. 426 00:18:02,080 --> 00:18:03,080 Okay. 427 00:18:03,080 --> 00:18:04,680 I read this verse this morning in the sermon. 428 00:18:04,680 --> 00:18:06,720 And again, this was a late edition. 429 00:18:06,720 --> 00:18:08,640 This is an edition this morning. 430 00:18:08,640 --> 00:18:13,800 No late late last night, you'd finally fell asleep and my mind was still pinging because 431 00:18:13,800 --> 00:18:17,960 I knew this wasn't fully developed because God just gave it to me hot off the press. 432 00:18:17,960 --> 00:18:22,720 So my mind was a little bit like going, uh, I hope I know where I'm going with this because 433 00:18:22,720 --> 00:18:24,720 I really felt led by the Lord to go. 434 00:18:24,720 --> 00:18:26,640 And this first came to my mind. 435 00:18:26,640 --> 00:18:31,200 Listen to this in second Corinthians 12 nine, Paul is talking about what you just brought 436 00:18:31,200 --> 00:18:33,560 up the thorn in the flesh. 437 00:18:33,560 --> 00:18:35,760 And he's saying, I want to do this, but then I do that. 438 00:18:35,760 --> 00:18:36,760 He's going back and forth. 439 00:18:36,760 --> 00:18:40,240 Well, that was actually Romans, but it's still the same spirit of what he's talking about. 440 00:18:40,240 --> 00:18:41,240 He's wrestling. 441 00:18:41,240 --> 00:18:42,480 Listen to what he says. 442 00:18:42,480 --> 00:18:44,600 And this is Paul speaking. 443 00:18:44,600 --> 00:18:51,320 He says, but he, God said to me, my grace is sufficient for you or my grace is enough 444 00:18:51,320 --> 00:18:56,120 for you for my power is made perfect in weakness. 445 00:18:56,120 --> 00:18:58,640 Therefore, this is Paul again. 446 00:18:58,640 --> 00:19:05,480 I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness so that Christ's power may rest on 447 00:19:05,480 --> 00:19:06,480 me. 448 00:19:06,480 --> 00:19:07,480 Whoa. 449 00:19:07,480 --> 00:19:13,800 He's in other words, when the Lord just didn't snap his fingers and remove the thorn and 450 00:19:13,800 --> 00:19:15,760 we don't even know what the thorn was. 451 00:19:15,760 --> 00:19:17,320 The Bible never clarifies. 452 00:19:17,320 --> 00:19:23,600 I think that's genius because it's almost like insert, insert your thorn in this blank, 453 00:19:23,600 --> 00:19:24,600 right? 454 00:19:24,600 --> 00:19:26,040 Because everybody has something different they're dealing with. 455 00:19:26,040 --> 00:19:29,080 We all have brokenness in our lives. 456 00:19:29,080 --> 00:19:31,720 And so I love that. 457 00:19:31,720 --> 00:19:34,520 The Lord said to Paul, my grace is sufficient for you. 458 00:19:34,520 --> 00:19:36,120 My power is made perfect. 459 00:19:36,120 --> 00:19:41,160 The word perfect there means whole, complete or total. 460 00:19:41,160 --> 00:19:45,160 My power is made perfect, whole, complete, total in weakness. 461 00:19:45,160 --> 00:19:52,000 It's like, so God shows off and shows out through Paul's weaknesses, which is speaking 462 00:19:52,000 --> 00:19:53,840 to us as well. 463 00:19:53,840 --> 00:19:59,400 So yeah, it's like you have to wrestle through this thing. 464 00:19:59,400 --> 00:20:02,160 You have to walk through the valley of the shadow. 465 00:20:02,160 --> 00:20:05,920 And I think people, you keep walking, people look at pastors and think, oh, well, y'all 466 00:20:05,920 --> 00:20:14,760 have got it all together, you know the word, you know how to handle life in a better manner. 467 00:20:14,760 --> 00:20:18,480 You don't have a care in the world and they don't understand. 468 00:20:18,480 --> 00:20:19,480 Sometimes it's worse. 469 00:20:19,480 --> 00:20:20,800 Introduce me to these said pastors. 470 00:20:20,800 --> 00:20:22,280 I would love to meet them. 471 00:20:22,280 --> 00:20:23,280 Exactly. 472 00:20:23,280 --> 00:20:26,640 Well, we've heard of some of those who've actually talked about that in the pulpit, 473 00:20:26,640 --> 00:20:28,520 but we know they're not perfect. 474 00:20:28,520 --> 00:20:30,520 We know that's not true. 475 00:20:30,520 --> 00:20:32,880 But man, it's hard. 476 00:20:32,880 --> 00:20:41,600 I think that the more ground we take from the enemy, the more he pushes us. 477 00:20:41,600 --> 00:20:42,600 Right. 478 00:20:42,600 --> 00:20:43,600 You know what I'm saying? 479 00:20:43,600 --> 00:20:44,600 Well, he's trying to keep a hold. 480 00:20:44,600 --> 00:20:45,600 He doesn't want to let go. 481 00:20:45,600 --> 00:20:46,600 He is. 482 00:20:46,600 --> 00:20:47,600 It's a stronghold. 483 00:20:47,600 --> 00:20:48,600 Stronghold. 484 00:20:48,600 --> 00:20:50,800 And he doesn't want to let go. 485 00:20:50,800 --> 00:20:55,480 And his job is to kill, steal, and destroy. 486 00:20:55,480 --> 00:21:00,800 And he might not can kill, steal, and destroy my body, but he can kill, steal, destroy my 487 00:21:00,800 --> 00:21:04,480 mind, my thoughts, my heart. 488 00:21:04,480 --> 00:21:08,200 I'm telling you, it's a battle. 489 00:21:08,200 --> 00:21:11,720 Well, first of all, yes, let's acknowledge it is a war. 490 00:21:11,720 --> 00:21:12,840 It's a fight. 491 00:21:12,840 --> 00:21:17,800 Everybody listening to the show right now can identify with having these mind wars. 492 00:21:17,800 --> 00:21:20,000 We brought that up a couple of weeks in a row because it is. 493 00:21:20,000 --> 00:21:22,600 At the battlefield, the mind's real. 494 00:21:22,600 --> 00:21:24,480 And in fact, you ordered that Bible from Joyce Meyer. 495 00:21:24,480 --> 00:21:25,480 It's great. 496 00:21:25,480 --> 00:21:27,800 I've been thumbing through it and looking at all the highlights. 497 00:21:27,800 --> 00:21:29,080 Fantastic. 498 00:21:29,080 --> 00:21:30,200 So it's real for us. 499 00:21:30,200 --> 00:21:33,520 This battle, this war. 500 00:21:33,520 --> 00:21:35,560 So let's acknowledge that it's real. 501 00:21:35,560 --> 00:21:39,840 So in order to heal it, I love what Tommy Hayes says, in order to heal it, you need 502 00:21:39,840 --> 00:21:40,840 to reveal it. 503 00:21:40,840 --> 00:21:43,800 So let's reveal that and acknowledge. 504 00:21:43,800 --> 00:21:44,800 It is what it is. 505 00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:47,560 However, we don't have to stay stuck in that. 506 00:21:47,560 --> 00:21:52,240 So let's get on to, because I want to help those that are listening, because we know 507 00:21:52,240 --> 00:21:56,980 what to do, even though sometimes in the middle of it, you don't want to do it. 508 00:21:56,980 --> 00:21:57,980 But what did you do? 509 00:21:57,980 --> 00:21:58,980 You mentioned it a minute ago. 510 00:21:58,980 --> 00:22:02,400 I got in the scriptures and I just read and read and read. 511 00:22:02,400 --> 00:22:10,280 And I found it interesting that the more I read, I was reading a lot of Psalms of what 512 00:22:10,280 --> 00:22:15,800 David was going through when Saul was after him and was wanting to kill him and destroy 513 00:22:15,800 --> 00:22:16,800 him. 514 00:22:16,800 --> 00:22:17,800 I didn't know what you were reading. 515 00:22:17,800 --> 00:22:18,800 You didn't tell me. 516 00:22:18,800 --> 00:22:19,800 Well, that was part of the devotion. 517 00:22:19,800 --> 00:22:26,280 And I'm sitting there thinking, here I am, upset about aging. 518 00:22:26,280 --> 00:22:27,880 Hello. 519 00:22:27,880 --> 00:22:33,420 Not looking the way I did when I was 30, not feeling the way I did when I was 30, not feeling 520 00:22:33,420 --> 00:22:36,300 attractive, all these things. 521 00:22:36,300 --> 00:22:41,480 And he's running for his life because a king wants to kill him. 522 00:22:41,480 --> 00:22:42,480 I literally... 523 00:22:42,480 --> 00:22:43,480 Out of jealousy. 524 00:22:43,480 --> 00:22:44,480 Yes. 525 00:22:44,480 --> 00:22:48,800 And I just sat there and I was just, how ridiculous is this? 526 00:22:48,800 --> 00:22:53,000 Literally, I literally felt the Lord say, do you not see how stupid this is? 527 00:22:53,000 --> 00:22:54,000 Wow. 528 00:22:54,000 --> 00:23:00,200 I don't see how stupid, but those thoughts are not for me because I see you as a masterpiece. 529 00:23:00,200 --> 00:23:01,200 A masterpiece. 530 00:23:01,200 --> 00:23:02,200 Come on, girl. 531 00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:07,360 And so if he sees me as that, why can't I see that? 532 00:23:07,360 --> 00:23:09,440 I was talking with Tina. 533 00:23:09,440 --> 00:23:12,000 We've talked quite a lot about body dysmorphia. 534 00:23:12,000 --> 00:23:13,760 So common. 535 00:23:13,760 --> 00:23:14,760 We both. 536 00:23:14,760 --> 00:23:15,760 So common. 537 00:23:15,760 --> 00:23:17,840 You've told me for years I had that issue. 538 00:23:17,840 --> 00:23:19,760 I didn't know there was a word for it. 539 00:23:19,760 --> 00:23:20,760 Yes, dysmorphia. 540 00:23:20,760 --> 00:23:25,760 And then Tina, as we have gotten to know each other, we've talked about it quite a bit, 541 00:23:25,760 --> 00:23:27,000 how we struggle with that. 542 00:23:27,000 --> 00:23:31,280 So tell people, for those who maybe don't, like me, I didn't know there was a term for 543 00:23:31,280 --> 00:23:32,280 it, but what is it? 544 00:23:32,280 --> 00:23:37,600 Well, it's just you don't see your body as it truly is. 545 00:23:37,600 --> 00:23:41,600 You look in the mirror and you see one thing and I look at you and I'm seeing a completely 546 00:23:41,600 --> 00:23:42,600 different thing. 547 00:23:42,600 --> 00:23:47,720 See, I look in the mirror and so many times, this is something I have to work on, I feel 548 00:23:47,720 --> 00:23:49,720 like I'm 300 pounds. 549 00:23:49,720 --> 00:23:50,720 I know. 550 00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:51,720 It doesn't even make sense. 551 00:23:51,720 --> 00:23:53,920 You're a tiny person. 552 00:23:53,920 --> 00:23:57,960 But in my mind, I'm not. 553 00:23:57,960 --> 00:24:04,720 When I see with my eyes, I mean, it's obvious that I'm not, but somehow in my mind, my mind 554 00:24:04,720 --> 00:24:06,360 tells me I am. 555 00:24:06,360 --> 00:24:10,020 So I have to overcome this constantly. 556 00:24:10,020 --> 00:24:16,920 Every time I eat, every time I put on clothes, but I have to eat and I have to dress, but 557 00:24:16,920 --> 00:24:24,120 it is something I have to, I'm not exactly sure where the origin is. 558 00:24:24,120 --> 00:24:28,440 Well, for one, I mean, I'm a dude. 559 00:24:28,440 --> 00:24:33,440 You're a female in the magazines, entertainment industry, culture. 560 00:24:33,440 --> 00:24:39,040 I mean, everything screams, not just at women, it screams at all of us that we're not enough, 561 00:24:39,040 --> 00:24:44,640 we're not pretty enough and yet they're airbrushed and fixed up and photoshopped. 562 00:24:44,640 --> 00:24:48,760 And yet we still somehow in our mind think we should be able to live up to these images. 563 00:24:48,760 --> 00:24:54,600 Well, I remember when I was 107 pounds and my ex-husband told me I was fat. 564 00:24:54,600 --> 00:24:56,680 So how do you get over that? 565 00:24:56,680 --> 00:25:02,680 107 pounds, I look at someone I could only wish, actually I don't wish to be 107, I would 566 00:25:02,680 --> 00:25:03,680 look horrible. 567 00:25:03,680 --> 00:25:14,560 But the problem is, is that the enemy puts those lies in your head from past statements 568 00:25:14,560 --> 00:25:19,640 that have been made about you and it just plays and plays and plays. 569 00:25:19,640 --> 00:25:20,640 So true. 570 00:25:20,640 --> 00:25:25,600 I thought I was doing fine and then I don't know, it just came out of nowhere. 571 00:25:25,600 --> 00:25:26,600 That's what's so crazy. 572 00:25:26,600 --> 00:25:29,220 Which to me is a signal. 573 00:25:29,220 --> 00:25:34,440 When a thought just comes out of nowhere, you have to realize there's an origin to that 574 00:25:34,440 --> 00:25:35,440 thought. 575 00:25:35,440 --> 00:25:41,160 So obviously something triggered it, but it came from a source other than you. 576 00:25:41,160 --> 00:25:46,600 Well, and I also realized I'm extremely tired. 577 00:25:46,600 --> 00:25:51,440 And think about it, we kind of let everything go. 578 00:25:51,440 --> 00:25:58,320 We kind of let our mind just kind of go wherever when we're tired. 579 00:25:58,320 --> 00:26:04,920 We don't think about our thoughts, which I think is important. 580 00:26:04,920 --> 00:26:11,880 And I just feel like I'm just gearing up for Easter and just all the things we've been 581 00:26:11,880 --> 00:26:13,480 doing in the last few weeks. 582 00:26:13,480 --> 00:26:18,440 I mean, we were sick for a long time and then we had all the funerals and weddings and now 583 00:26:18,440 --> 00:26:20,600 we have another wedding, our own daughter. 584 00:26:20,600 --> 00:26:24,000 And so I feel like I am just exhausted. 585 00:26:24,000 --> 00:26:30,600 And when you're exhausted, you just kind of allow, the enemy can be allowed to get in 586 00:26:30,600 --> 00:26:35,680 there and speak those things that bring death and not life. 587 00:26:35,680 --> 00:26:36,680 And I think that's what happened. 588 00:26:36,680 --> 00:26:41,120 I think, I don't know, we've been counseling a lot of people. 589 00:26:41,120 --> 00:26:42,120 I mean, it's been... 590 00:26:42,120 --> 00:26:44,080 We've been meeting with a lot of people who are struggling. 591 00:26:44,080 --> 00:26:50,400 We've done a lot of funerals where we're dealing with a lot of death and grief and heavy things. 592 00:26:50,400 --> 00:26:54,960 And the residue of that, well, you can't help but take that on or you can't be empathetic 593 00:26:54,960 --> 00:26:58,560 and compassionate unless you are feeling some of those things. 594 00:26:58,560 --> 00:26:59,560 Right. 595 00:26:59,560 --> 00:27:00,560 Because you do. 596 00:27:00,560 --> 00:27:04,280 And if you turn it off, we wouldn't be worth anything if we turned it off. 597 00:27:04,280 --> 00:27:06,240 We wouldn't be any good to anybody. 598 00:27:06,240 --> 00:27:10,120 So we do tend to take those things on and we do it out of love. 599 00:27:10,120 --> 00:27:15,640 It is a love thing, but you don't often get four or five funerals and a wedding in a couple 600 00:27:15,640 --> 00:27:16,640 of months. 601 00:27:16,640 --> 00:27:17,640 Exactly. 602 00:27:17,640 --> 00:27:23,840 It's a real heightened season of a lot of emotional weight and gravity. 603 00:27:23,840 --> 00:27:25,840 It just feels like you've been saying it in your lips. 604 00:27:25,840 --> 00:27:26,840 So I think I need... 605 00:27:26,840 --> 00:27:27,840 That's why I said I need some time off. 606 00:27:27,840 --> 00:27:29,840 I literally was praying to the Lord last night. 607 00:27:29,840 --> 00:27:34,880 I was just like, I really do need some time just... 608 00:27:34,880 --> 00:27:37,880 Yes, to restore myself. 609 00:27:37,880 --> 00:27:42,840 I mean, spiritually, I feel stronger than I've ever been, honestly. 610 00:27:42,840 --> 00:27:47,800 Because on the other hand, so here's the flip side, it's been a great season. 611 00:27:47,800 --> 00:27:51,720 We're seeing the church is growing, it's thriving, people are thriving. 612 00:27:51,720 --> 00:27:57,000 We're making great friends and we're doing this podcast as a new thing. 613 00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:58,720 We're engaging a lot of things. 614 00:27:58,720 --> 00:28:01,440 We're not allowing things to come into our mind. 615 00:28:01,440 --> 00:28:03,800 Yes, it's just been amazing. 616 00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:06,520 Isn't that when the devil comes? 617 00:28:06,520 --> 00:28:07,520 Go figure. 618 00:28:07,520 --> 00:28:08,520 Always. 619 00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:09,520 Hello. 620 00:28:09,520 --> 00:28:10,880 It's kind of like, get a clue here. 621 00:28:10,880 --> 00:28:16,120 So interesting because we were just talking about this and you made a comment. 622 00:28:16,120 --> 00:28:20,560 You said, and again, for our listeners, we really want you to drill down in this with 623 00:28:20,560 --> 00:28:21,680 us. 624 00:28:21,680 --> 00:28:27,680 The Bible calls the devil a liar and the father of lies. 625 00:28:27,680 --> 00:28:32,840 And Jesus says he's been a liar from the beginning because that's his nature. 626 00:28:32,840 --> 00:28:34,120 It's his nature to lie. 627 00:28:34,120 --> 00:28:40,920 So these things that come back at us, these echoes from the past are really from the enemy. 628 00:28:40,920 --> 00:28:45,200 It's a strategic assault on our heart and on our mind. 629 00:28:45,200 --> 00:28:51,520 Because if you believe a lie, you will act on it as though it's true, correct? 630 00:28:51,520 --> 00:28:52,520 It's true. 631 00:28:52,520 --> 00:28:57,280 So if I'm told this, and when I was in the childcare industry with these children that 632 00:28:57,280 --> 00:29:01,320 were so abused, much of what they were up against wasn't real. 633 00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:07,920 And it was real to them because a lie becomes real to the person. 634 00:29:07,920 --> 00:29:13,520 You say it long enough and often enough, it becomes a reality and you begin to think it's 635 00:29:13,520 --> 00:29:14,520 true. 636 00:29:14,520 --> 00:29:17,200 And then once you think it's true, you act as though it is. 637 00:29:17,200 --> 00:29:21,320 So when a child is told they're ugly, they were never wanted, they're not going to ever 638 00:29:21,320 --> 00:29:22,800 turn out to be anything. 639 00:29:22,800 --> 00:29:24,120 They'll never make it. 640 00:29:24,120 --> 00:29:28,680 And they're told that over and over for the first one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, 641 00:29:28,680 --> 00:29:30,840 eight, ten years of their life. 642 00:29:30,840 --> 00:29:31,960 Well what do you think? 643 00:29:31,960 --> 00:29:36,520 They start to actually act as though that's true and that it becomes a self-fulfilling 644 00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:37,840 prophecy, correct? 645 00:29:37,840 --> 00:29:38,840 Exactly. 646 00:29:38,840 --> 00:29:43,560 And so what a lot of all of us, and I say us, those of us, those that are listening, 647 00:29:43,560 --> 00:29:46,560 you and me sitting here, I don't know about Chevy, he's pretty clueless. 648 00:29:46,560 --> 00:29:52,720 But other than that, we are constantly battling some of these thoughts and some of these lies 649 00:29:52,720 --> 00:29:59,280 that were implanted like a tree gets transplanted into your soul and it grows roots. 650 00:29:59,280 --> 00:30:03,400 And once it takes root, it's difficult to get out. 651 00:30:03,400 --> 00:30:06,480 Like if you pull a tree up out in the yard right now, we won't go out with the right 652 00:30:06,480 --> 00:30:09,120 kind of equipment and pull that thing up. 653 00:30:09,120 --> 00:30:13,200 There'd still be a root system in the ground that could cause problems. 654 00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:14,600 And so the same thing happens. 655 00:30:14,600 --> 00:30:20,520 So we receive Jesus Christ, we accept his goodness in our lives, and then we begin to 656 00:30:20,520 --> 00:30:22,320 say we're free indeed. 657 00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:23,920 We're free in Christ. 658 00:30:23,920 --> 00:30:29,080 And then something triggers a thought and it's like, whoa, I thought I was over that. 659 00:30:29,080 --> 00:30:31,440 I thought Jesus healed that. 660 00:30:31,440 --> 00:30:32,960 Here's what we've learned. 661 00:30:32,960 --> 00:30:38,840 The real way and maybe the hard way is that healing is a process. 662 00:30:38,840 --> 00:30:39,840 That's for sure. 663 00:30:39,840 --> 00:30:44,320 A miracle is instantaneous, but a miracle can also be a process. 664 00:30:44,320 --> 00:30:54,040 And so I've quit begging God for the instantaneous miracle and I now ask God and request that 665 00:30:54,040 --> 00:30:57,800 he walk with me through these healing things. 666 00:30:57,800 --> 00:31:05,800 So for those listening, the enemy is a liar and there's a strategy, a scheme on your life. 667 00:31:05,800 --> 00:31:11,840 There's a strategy against you to do well, to make it, to overcome. 668 00:31:11,840 --> 00:31:16,320 And even though already in Christ you are free, already in Christ you are healed, already 669 00:31:16,320 --> 00:31:21,720 in Christ you are an overcomer, if the enemy can convince you that you're not, then you 670 00:31:21,720 --> 00:31:24,760 will act like you're not even though you are. 671 00:31:24,760 --> 00:31:28,200 And that's the enemy's goal because what he's trying to do is cancel you. 672 00:31:28,200 --> 00:31:30,160 He wants to marginalize you. 673 00:31:30,160 --> 00:31:32,320 He wants to ghost you. 674 00:31:32,320 --> 00:31:38,640 He wants to do everything he can to make sure you are ineffective for the kingdom of God. 675 00:31:38,640 --> 00:31:42,560 And so he does these surprise attacks, which is what happened to you. 676 00:31:42,560 --> 00:31:48,720 Although you pinpointed it and realized, wait, about this time of year I get triggered. 677 00:31:48,720 --> 00:31:49,720 That's insightful. 678 00:31:49,720 --> 00:31:51,440 Hey, and that's a victory that you recognize. 679 00:31:51,440 --> 00:31:54,080 Well, it's just interesting that it was a week later. 680 00:31:54,080 --> 00:31:55,080 Yeah. 681 00:31:55,080 --> 00:31:59,600 So that tells me, hmm, okay, maybe, you know, who knows? 682 00:31:59,600 --> 00:32:02,240 Maybe it's maybe next year it'll be a month later. 683 00:32:02,240 --> 00:32:03,920 Eventually it will be nothing. 684 00:32:03,920 --> 00:32:05,560 I need it to go away. 685 00:32:05,560 --> 00:32:06,560 I know. 686 00:32:06,560 --> 00:32:11,960 But it's, I'm just glad I had the word to go to. 687 00:32:11,960 --> 00:32:14,160 Let me applaud you for how you handled it. 688 00:32:14,160 --> 00:32:15,160 Yes. 689 00:32:15,160 --> 00:32:18,680 I could not have gotten through the night if I did not read the word. 690 00:32:18,680 --> 00:32:20,000 Because here's the interesting thing. 691 00:32:20,000 --> 00:32:24,840 So the timing of it, it's the night before I'm going to preach what would some would 692 00:32:24,840 --> 00:32:28,520 say is the Super Bowl of Sundays for a pastor and a Christian. 693 00:32:28,520 --> 00:32:31,480 So I'm, and I've already had a switcheroo. 694 00:32:31,480 --> 00:32:36,160 So I was a little not sure footed about it because I hadn't studied all that. 695 00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:39,660 It was, God totally threw me a different direction. 696 00:32:39,660 --> 00:32:44,800 And then I'm, instead of focusing on that, all I can do is think about, is she okay? 697 00:32:44,800 --> 00:32:46,120 Is she okay? 698 00:32:46,120 --> 00:32:49,160 What a distraction that the enemy wants for you. 699 00:32:49,160 --> 00:32:50,160 I know. 700 00:32:50,160 --> 00:32:51,160 And we get that. 701 00:32:51,160 --> 00:32:53,560 And it's not that you did anything wrong. 702 00:32:53,560 --> 00:32:59,840 It's just the timing of this wave, this attack hitting you, this residue coming back up was 703 00:32:59,840 --> 00:33:02,840 the night before one of our biggest days of the year. 704 00:33:02,840 --> 00:33:04,800 And it turned out it was, it was a record setter. 705 00:33:04,800 --> 00:33:07,120 It was a huge day for us. 706 00:33:07,120 --> 00:33:08,920 And a lot of people minister too. 707 00:33:08,920 --> 00:33:11,680 A lot of good things happened today. 708 00:33:11,680 --> 00:33:15,640 And if you ever want to watch our messages or find out more about our church, it's called 709 00:33:15,640 --> 00:33:17,920 Bridge Church Fredericksburg. 710 00:33:17,920 --> 00:33:19,920 You can go to bridgefbg.com. 711 00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:23,040 FBG stands for Fredericksburg. 712 00:33:23,040 --> 00:33:24,040 Bridgefbg.com. 713 00:33:24,040 --> 00:33:26,520 You can find all of our sermons there. 714 00:33:26,520 --> 00:33:27,880 I put our daily posts there. 715 00:33:27,880 --> 00:33:33,520 I mean, you can do that and you can actually watch the messages from this weekend because 716 00:33:33,520 --> 00:33:34,840 here's the switcheroo that came. 717 00:33:34,840 --> 00:33:36,520 Can I just share this? 718 00:33:36,520 --> 00:33:39,760 Because it really fits right in with what we're talking about. 719 00:33:39,760 --> 00:33:48,000 So at four something on Saturday morning, Friday morning, Friday morning, Saturday morning. 720 00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:51,080 So Saturday morning I put the final polish on the message. 721 00:33:51,080 --> 00:33:55,400 I send it over to Pastor Brian who's over our production so that he can load in the 722 00:33:55,400 --> 00:34:02,920 scriptures into our system so that they'll show up on the screen, a pro presenter. 723 00:34:02,920 --> 00:34:06,840 So he'll have everything we need so that I've got slides and all that. 724 00:34:06,840 --> 00:34:12,240 He does the final build out on Saturday morning, runs up there, or early Sunday sometimes. 725 00:34:12,240 --> 00:34:17,920 But anyway, so I knew I needed to get up and get him the final and I'd already put together 726 00:34:17,920 --> 00:34:20,440 a bunch of stuff. 727 00:34:20,440 --> 00:34:23,360 I was going to have to edit a lot of his way too much information. 728 00:34:23,360 --> 00:34:27,320 Gosh, it's daunting when you start looking at Holy Week. 729 00:34:27,320 --> 00:34:29,880 And so about four something I woke up. 730 00:34:29,880 --> 00:34:34,080 I had this very uneasy feeling and I knew what it was. 731 00:34:34,080 --> 00:34:36,240 I knew I was getting a curve ball. 732 00:34:36,240 --> 00:34:38,720 It doesn't happen that often, but it does happen some. 733 00:34:38,720 --> 00:34:43,560 But when it does, and then I go into these, oh, Annette thought I was going to do this. 734 00:34:43,560 --> 00:34:48,400 If I do a switch and she doesn't like it, then I'm going to feel bad about it. 735 00:34:48,400 --> 00:34:49,400 But these things happen. 736 00:34:49,400 --> 00:34:50,400 I always like everything. 737 00:34:50,400 --> 00:34:53,800 Well, there are times when you kind of get that questioning thing like, are you sure 738 00:34:53,800 --> 00:34:54,800 about that? 739 00:34:54,800 --> 00:34:55,800 And I go, trust me. 740 00:34:55,800 --> 00:34:57,840 And then you preach and it's amazing. 741 00:34:57,840 --> 00:34:58,840 It's the right thing. 742 00:34:58,840 --> 00:34:59,840 Yes, exactly. 743 00:34:59,840 --> 00:35:04,600 And I do hear his voice, not literally, but I get these impressions and leanings. 744 00:35:04,600 --> 00:35:09,800 And so I do know when it's him trying to give me a signal. 745 00:35:09,800 --> 00:35:11,380 And so I was trying to listen to that. 746 00:35:11,380 --> 00:35:16,680 So I get up Saturday morning, I rebuild the whole message in a completely different direction, 747 00:35:16,680 --> 00:35:17,680 totally different. 748 00:35:17,680 --> 00:35:21,840 And I thought, wow, well, this will be an unusual Easter message. 749 00:35:21,840 --> 00:35:23,680 But here's what happened. 750 00:35:23,680 --> 00:35:28,620 I woke up in the middle of the night thinking I've did all this research and work on a message 751 00:35:28,620 --> 00:35:31,160 that's going to scientifically wow people. 752 00:35:31,160 --> 00:35:34,360 They're going to go, oh my gosh, the crucifixion was horrible to the human body. 753 00:35:34,360 --> 00:35:41,120 Oh, I'm going to quote Lee Strobel, who I love as an apologist and a thinker about the 754 00:35:41,120 --> 00:35:42,920 validity of the resurrection. 755 00:35:42,920 --> 00:35:48,640 And it dawned on me, and I know this was the Holy Spirit, my helper, my comforter, my counselor, 756 00:35:48,640 --> 00:35:54,640 my friend, waking me up to say, that's great, Jimmy, but you're going to miss a lot of the 757 00:35:54,640 --> 00:36:02,040 people that I'm going to bring to the Bridge Church, literally nearly 300 more people, 758 00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:04,840 over 300 more people than a regular Sunday. 759 00:36:04,840 --> 00:36:05,840 Plus internet. 760 00:36:05,840 --> 00:36:08,960 Plus the internet, you know, people that are watching online. 761 00:36:08,960 --> 00:36:12,760 And the Lord just, again, he didn't speak literal. 762 00:36:12,760 --> 00:36:19,860 This is my mind interpreting my feelings that he was giving me was, who's your audience? 763 00:36:19,860 --> 00:36:22,080 And I realized, and I heard this in my heart. 764 00:36:22,080 --> 00:36:28,440 I even said it out loud the other day, that Easter is about when Jesus told Peter and 765 00:36:28,440 --> 00:36:32,320 the guys to cast their net on the other side of the boat. 766 00:36:32,320 --> 00:36:35,680 They had been fishing all night and hadn't caught anything. 767 00:36:35,680 --> 00:36:39,140 Jesus shows up and says, cast your net on the other side of the boat. 768 00:36:39,140 --> 00:36:43,760 The impression I had was Jesus was saying to me, cast your net on the other side of 769 00:36:43,760 --> 00:36:44,760 the boat. 770 00:36:44,760 --> 00:36:47,800 And the way I interpreted that was, you're not going to preach what you thought you were. 771 00:36:47,800 --> 00:36:50,520 It's going to be a completely different thing. 772 00:36:50,520 --> 00:36:51,840 You think you need to do it over here. 773 00:36:51,840 --> 00:36:55,520 I'm telling you, put it over here and there'll be a great catch of fish. 774 00:36:55,520 --> 00:36:57,640 So we show up, church is packed. 775 00:36:57,640 --> 00:36:58,640 I mean, it's crazy. 776 00:36:58,640 --> 00:37:00,840 I mean, like, don't tell the fire department. 777 00:37:00,840 --> 00:37:03,280 There was a lot of people there. 778 00:37:03,280 --> 00:37:04,640 It was jammed. 779 00:37:04,640 --> 00:37:06,360 And praise the Lord for that. 780 00:37:06,360 --> 00:37:11,840 But I realized as I looked out in the Congress, and I went out and met a lot of people before 781 00:37:11,840 --> 00:37:14,440 the first and second services started. 782 00:37:14,440 --> 00:37:17,000 And as I was meeting, I knew, I knew we're from Ohio. 783 00:37:17,000 --> 00:37:18,000 We were visiting town. 784 00:37:18,000 --> 00:37:21,720 Or these are my friends or these are my family from another town. 785 00:37:21,720 --> 00:37:26,120 And the Lord was saying, see, the people that are here, they need to hear. 786 00:37:26,120 --> 00:37:32,000 They don't need another crucifix, crucifixion story that they hear every, every year. 787 00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:36,600 They need to hear that God loves them no matter what it is. 788 00:37:36,600 --> 00:37:37,600 I got up there. 789 00:37:37,600 --> 00:37:39,600 On their worst day, God loves them. 790 00:37:39,600 --> 00:37:40,600 Exactly. 791 00:37:40,600 --> 00:37:42,440 I got up there with basically no story in mind. 792 00:37:42,440 --> 00:37:43,440 Nothing. 793 00:37:43,440 --> 00:37:44,440 I mean, it was bare. 794 00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:48,360 That's why you typically, I mean, you get up and you tell a story off the cuff. 795 00:37:48,360 --> 00:37:49,360 I don't know how you do that. 796 00:37:49,360 --> 00:37:52,960 But I think because that was such a different direction, I cast my net on the other side 797 00:37:52,960 --> 00:37:57,440 of the boat that I did not exactly know where it was going for service. 798 00:37:57,440 --> 00:38:00,320 And I just stepped up and trusted the Lord. 799 00:38:00,320 --> 00:38:01,880 He's going to give me what I need to say. 800 00:38:01,880 --> 00:38:04,640 And he did right off the bat. 801 00:38:04,640 --> 00:38:07,120 And the word says my sheep hear my voice. 802 00:38:07,120 --> 00:38:09,640 They know my voice. 803 00:38:09,640 --> 00:38:15,120 So I trust God in you that he's going to lead you to preach what you need to preach. 804 00:38:15,120 --> 00:38:18,720 I trust him to lean on me. 805 00:38:18,720 --> 00:38:19,720 Please don't put that pressure on me. 806 00:38:19,720 --> 00:38:20,960 I love you and I want to please you. 807 00:38:20,960 --> 00:38:23,800 I know, but I would rather you please God than me. 808 00:38:23,800 --> 00:38:24,800 I get that. 809 00:38:24,800 --> 00:38:25,800 Yeah. 810 00:38:25,800 --> 00:38:26,800 So that's what I did. 811 00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:33,360 And I'd switch the whole thrust of the message to the brokenhearted. 812 00:38:33,360 --> 00:38:35,480 And I did something I've never done. 813 00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:36,480 I said, Humpty Dumpty. 814 00:38:36,480 --> 00:38:40,160 And then I let the congregations finish it. 815 00:38:40,160 --> 00:38:41,160 That was funny. 816 00:38:41,160 --> 00:38:42,920 Humpty Dumpty had a great fall. 817 00:38:42,920 --> 00:38:45,320 Do kids these days even know that story? 818 00:38:45,320 --> 00:38:49,920 All the king's horses and all the king's men couldn't put Humpty together again. 819 00:38:49,920 --> 00:38:52,080 So I talked about Mr. Humpty. 820 00:38:52,080 --> 00:38:56,320 Mr. and Mrs. Dumpty and Mrs. Dumpty. 821 00:38:56,320 --> 00:38:57,480 Because there's male and female. 822 00:38:57,480 --> 00:38:59,080 And I said, we're all broken. 823 00:38:59,080 --> 00:39:00,640 We all have shards. 824 00:39:00,640 --> 00:39:05,240 We're like shards of glass, shards of ceramic pottery. 825 00:39:05,240 --> 00:39:09,560 And then I told a story about an ancient Japanese. 826 00:39:09,560 --> 00:39:10,880 That was powerful. 827 00:39:10,880 --> 00:39:12,720 This is how God works. 828 00:39:12,720 --> 00:39:16,280 I read a random, very random news article. 829 00:39:16,280 --> 00:39:17,800 And I live randomly. 830 00:39:17,800 --> 00:39:20,680 So it's actually not that abnormal for me. 831 00:39:20,680 --> 00:39:23,640 But I pulled up this news article. 832 00:39:23,640 --> 00:39:24,640 I clicked on it. 833 00:39:24,640 --> 00:39:29,600 It was like three things that the Japanese culture do to find peace. 834 00:39:29,600 --> 00:39:31,400 I thought, well, that's interesting randomly. 835 00:39:31,400 --> 00:39:32,400 What do they do? 836 00:39:32,400 --> 00:39:40,680 And one of them was this art form called kintsugi. 837 00:39:40,680 --> 00:39:43,360 It's hard for me to say, kintsugi. 838 00:39:43,360 --> 00:39:45,160 And so I did some research. 839 00:39:45,160 --> 00:39:48,800 And on that, it was fascinating. 840 00:39:48,800 --> 00:39:54,560 What they do is they take, instead of throwing away, let's say a bowl falls off the table 841 00:39:54,560 --> 00:39:55,560 and breaks. 842 00:39:55,560 --> 00:39:57,560 Well, normally, what would we do? 843 00:39:57,560 --> 00:40:00,200 We would throw it in the trash if it's not salvageable. 844 00:40:00,200 --> 00:40:01,200 Get the broom. 845 00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:02,200 Right. 846 00:40:02,200 --> 00:40:03,200 Get the scoop thing. 847 00:40:03,200 --> 00:40:04,200 The Dyson. 848 00:40:04,200 --> 00:40:05,200 The Dyson. 849 00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:08,820 We'd go grab the Dyson and we'd just vacuum that thing up, throw it in the trash, right? 850 00:40:08,820 --> 00:40:10,840 And never think about it again. 851 00:40:10,840 --> 00:40:11,840 But not them. 852 00:40:11,840 --> 00:40:16,880 They actually value the usefulness of a product or something that's made to do something. 853 00:40:16,880 --> 00:40:18,880 They value its purpose. 854 00:40:18,880 --> 00:40:25,960 And so centuries ago, an emperor, a Japanese emperor, had a very valuable rare pot. 855 00:40:25,960 --> 00:40:26,960 It fell over. 856 00:40:26,960 --> 00:40:28,560 It broke. 857 00:40:28,560 --> 00:40:34,680 And so he sent out throughout the land wanting to get another one because it was rare, but 858 00:40:34,680 --> 00:40:37,480 there were others made and they could not find one. 859 00:40:37,480 --> 00:40:42,360 And so some artisans and those who worked in ceramics and pottery came and said, let 860 00:40:42,360 --> 00:40:44,000 us take it. 861 00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:45,320 Let us see what we can do. 862 00:40:45,320 --> 00:40:46,720 So he did. 863 00:40:46,720 --> 00:40:51,800 And when they brought it back, it was stunning because what they did is they took lacquer 864 00:40:51,800 --> 00:41:00,480 and gold dust and they meticulously reassembled this vase or this piece of pottery. 865 00:41:00,480 --> 00:41:04,220 And it actually was more beautiful when they returned it. 866 00:41:04,220 --> 00:41:05,220 And it was more beautiful. 867 00:41:05,220 --> 00:41:06,220 More valuable. 868 00:41:06,220 --> 00:41:09,480 It was more valuable because of the gold dust. 869 00:41:09,480 --> 00:41:14,600 But it meant more to the emperor afterwards because he could see the cracks and the scars 870 00:41:14,600 --> 00:41:16,280 and the imperfections. 871 00:41:16,280 --> 00:41:19,600 But they made those imperfections beautiful. 872 00:41:19,600 --> 00:41:23,160 And that began a trend where other people began to do that. 873 00:41:23,160 --> 00:41:31,360 And now you walk into any Japanese restaurant or you're in a museum, you'll see these beautiful 874 00:41:31,360 --> 00:41:33,760 works and they're beautiful. 875 00:41:33,760 --> 00:41:37,880 But they're actually birthed out of brokenness. 876 00:41:37,880 --> 00:41:41,880 And so then the article I read had nothing to do with Jesus. 877 00:41:41,880 --> 00:41:44,120 It was all about the Japanese culture. 878 00:41:44,120 --> 00:41:48,720 But I thought to myself, this is exactly what God has done in my life. 879 00:41:48,720 --> 00:41:51,040 This is what Jesus does for us. 880 00:41:51,040 --> 00:41:57,280 He takes these broken pieces and instead of discarding them, he actually scoops them up 881 00:41:57,280 --> 00:41:59,380 and he puts them back together again. 882 00:41:59,380 --> 00:42:02,200 And they're better and more valuable afterwards. 883 00:42:02,200 --> 00:42:04,120 They become works of art. 884 00:42:04,120 --> 00:42:05,680 I want to just share a scripture. 885 00:42:05,680 --> 00:42:11,360 In fact, you even mentioned you got right there and I thought, oh, this is that. 886 00:42:11,360 --> 00:42:12,360 So let me just share this. 887 00:42:12,360 --> 00:42:18,160 For those of you who maybe feel like you're broken, maybe you feel like you're shards 888 00:42:18,160 --> 00:42:24,360 of pottery on the ground and somebody's about to come scoop you up and toss you out, this 889 00:42:24,360 --> 00:42:28,880 scripture came to my mind, Ephesians chapter two, verses eight through 10. 890 00:42:28,880 --> 00:42:29,880 For it is by grace. 891 00:42:29,880 --> 00:42:32,040 I love that word. 892 00:42:32,040 --> 00:42:37,320 For it is by grace you have been saved through faith and this not from yourselves. 893 00:42:37,320 --> 00:42:41,880 It is the gift of God, God's gift of grace. 894 00:42:41,880 --> 00:42:45,040 And it says this, not by works so that no one can boast. 895 00:42:45,040 --> 00:42:47,020 Now listen to this, verse 10. 896 00:42:47,020 --> 00:42:52,620 This is where that metaphor collided with my theology. 897 00:42:52,620 --> 00:43:01,040 For we are God's workmanship created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God has prepared 898 00:43:01,040 --> 00:43:02,680 in advance for us to do. 899 00:43:02,680 --> 00:43:09,040 In other words, God designed us to do these amazing things, but we are broken. 900 00:43:04,360 --> 00:43:19,360 Oh my God. 901 00:43:09,040 --> 00:43:10,040 Everyone is broken. 902 00:43:10,040 --> 00:43:11,040 Everyone. 903 00:43:11,040 --> 00:43:13,240 Everyone listening to this podcast is broken. 904 00:43:13,240 --> 00:43:16,120 There are chinks in our armor. 905 00:43:19,360 --> 00:43:21,360 Or Home Depot or something. 906 00:43:21,360 --> 00:43:23,960 It got the scratch and dent section. 907 00:43:23,960 --> 00:43:29,920 It's a bunch of stuff that got beat up in shipping and it's dented and it's lost value 908 00:43:29,920 --> 00:43:32,400 according to the consumer. 909 00:43:32,400 --> 00:43:35,360 And yet when we put it back to work, it works. 910 00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:42,200 But I love the whole idea of Kitsumi that God can take these broken things and put them 911 00:43:42,200 --> 00:43:47,480 back together with gold, with grace, with mercy, with his love. 912 00:43:47,480 --> 00:43:53,240 Put us back together again to where now we become what the scripture says. 913 00:43:53,240 --> 00:43:59,200 So that we are God's workmanship and that word workmanship means a work in progress. 914 00:43:59,200 --> 00:44:03,320 It's what a craftsman or an artisan does with beautiful things. 915 00:44:03,320 --> 00:44:08,040 They work with things and create something that's a work of art and that's beautiful. 916 00:44:08,040 --> 00:44:10,160 And that's what we are in Christ. 917 00:44:10,160 --> 00:44:13,160 And I share that message and that's the message the Lord gave me. 918 00:44:13,160 --> 00:44:18,520 Of course, I use Peter as a great example of how three times he denied Christ and then 919 00:44:18,520 --> 00:44:20,560 Christ three times restored him. 920 00:44:20,560 --> 00:44:22,840 And just a beautiful moment there. 921 00:44:22,840 --> 00:44:28,040 And then we called for people to come forward and give their hearts to Christ. 922 00:44:28,040 --> 00:44:29,560 And we had a lot of people to front. 923 00:44:29,560 --> 00:44:32,560 It was just a beautiful, beautiful day. 924 00:44:32,560 --> 00:44:38,280 But I've learned something new and Kitsumi will always be an image in my mind of something 925 00:44:38,280 --> 00:44:40,720 that was broken that God made beautiful. 926 00:44:40,720 --> 00:44:43,720 And then that line of the song came to me. 927 00:44:43,720 --> 00:44:50,460 What people or what we call broken, what we see is broken, God sees beautiful. 928 00:44:50,460 --> 00:44:53,040 We see broken, God sees beautiful. 929 00:44:53,040 --> 00:44:55,400 And so anyway, that was the thrust of it all. 930 00:44:55,400 --> 00:44:59,520 So Annette, what did that speak to you? 931 00:44:59,520 --> 00:45:03,240 You said that that really hit you because that wasn't where you thought it was going 932 00:45:03,240 --> 00:45:04,240 with the message. 933 00:45:04,240 --> 00:45:08,360 Do you remember that song we used to sing about being refined as gold? 934 00:45:08,360 --> 00:45:09,360 Oh yeah. 935 00:45:09,360 --> 00:45:10,360 What was it called? 936 00:45:10,360 --> 00:45:11,360 Refiners Fire, I think. 937 00:45:11,360 --> 00:45:12,360 That was a classic. 938 00:45:12,360 --> 00:45:13,840 Oh, it's called Gold. 939 00:45:13,840 --> 00:45:15,520 Gold, it sure was. 940 00:45:15,520 --> 00:45:16,520 It's called Gold. 941 00:45:16,520 --> 00:45:17,520 It was a beautiful song. 942 00:45:17,520 --> 00:45:18,520 Beautiful worship song. 943 00:45:18,520 --> 00:45:19,520 I wish we had that song playing. 944 00:45:19,520 --> 00:45:22,320 It's powerful. 945 00:45:22,320 --> 00:45:28,160 In Zechariah 13, he says, I will refine them as silver is refined and test them as gold 946 00:45:28,160 --> 00:45:29,160 is tested. 947 00:45:29,160 --> 00:45:31,920 They will call on my name and I will answer them. 948 00:45:31,920 --> 00:45:34,600 I will say, this is my people. 949 00:45:34,600 --> 00:45:37,760 And each one will say, the Lord is my God. 950 00:45:37,760 --> 00:45:38,760 Wow. 951 00:45:38,760 --> 00:45:39,760 See, he refines us. 952 00:45:39,760 --> 00:45:40,760 He refines us. 953 00:45:40,760 --> 00:45:43,960 It purifies like the finest gold. 954 00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:46,520 And so that was going through my mind. 955 00:45:46,520 --> 00:45:49,560 I was like, wow, he's just refining us. 956 00:45:49,560 --> 00:45:55,160 And we're always going to be refined until we meet him face to face, in person. 957 00:45:55,160 --> 00:45:57,800 And then it will be complete. 958 00:45:57,800 --> 00:46:00,480 I think we live in a fallen world. 959 00:46:00,480 --> 00:46:05,360 So we sort of sometimes have this fairy tale that one day I'm going to reach a place in 960 00:46:05,360 --> 00:46:09,640 life where there'll be no more pain, where there'll be no more discomfort. 961 00:46:09,640 --> 00:46:14,720 That means I need to work harder, make more money, invest more, have a bigger retirement. 962 00:46:14,720 --> 00:46:20,200 So we think we try to build in all these safeguards just in case. 963 00:46:20,200 --> 00:46:25,800 And at some point you have to realize we live in a broken world and broken things break 964 00:46:25,800 --> 00:46:27,600 other things. 965 00:46:27,600 --> 00:46:32,080 We always say broken people break people, hurt people hurt people. 966 00:46:32,080 --> 00:46:37,260 But broken, when you live in a broken world, the broken world is going to break people. 967 00:46:37,260 --> 00:46:38,260 It's going to break us. 968 00:46:38,260 --> 00:46:44,200 It's going to chip things off and dent us and hit us and hurt us. 969 00:46:44,200 --> 00:46:45,920 It's not a fatalistic viewpoint. 970 00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:50,760 It's not like I live thinking, oh yeah, well, just waiting for the next shoe to drop. 971 00:46:50,760 --> 00:46:55,640 But there is a sense in which we realize that life is not fair and that we live in a broken 972 00:46:55,640 --> 00:46:57,680 world and things happen. 973 00:46:57,680 --> 00:46:58,680 And we do. 974 00:46:58,680 --> 00:47:04,240 But the beauty of it is, is that we now have, you used the word of God when you were struggling 975 00:47:04,240 --> 00:47:08,000 in your brokenness yesterday, last night. 976 00:47:08,000 --> 00:47:09,880 You went to the source of life. 977 00:47:09,880 --> 00:47:11,080 You went to the word of God. 978 00:47:11,080 --> 00:47:14,800 You went to the Bible and you read the scripture. 979 00:47:14,800 --> 00:47:16,000 What did it do? 980 00:47:16,000 --> 00:47:21,960 It built me up, gave me peace, gave me rest. 981 00:47:21,960 --> 00:47:24,240 I was able to go to sleep and sleep well. 982 00:47:24,240 --> 00:47:27,440 It put you back together again like lacquer and gold. 983 00:47:27,440 --> 00:47:28,440 Exactly. 984 00:47:28,440 --> 00:47:29,440 Exactly. 985 00:47:29,440 --> 00:47:30,440 Well, I think you're beautiful. 986 00:47:30,440 --> 00:47:31,440 Thank you. 987 00:47:31,440 --> 00:47:32,440 Yeah. 988 00:47:32,440 --> 00:47:33,440 You're a beautiful work of art. 989 00:47:33,440 --> 00:47:35,280 You're His workmanship. 990 00:47:35,280 --> 00:47:36,280 And so are you. 991 00:47:36,280 --> 00:47:39,800 Those of you that are listening, you are God's workmanship. 992 00:47:39,800 --> 00:47:43,160 You're God's masterpiece that He's working on and building. 993 00:47:43,160 --> 00:47:44,920 And we want you to be encouraged. 994 00:47:44,920 --> 00:47:49,240 We call this podcast, Living Up in a Down World for a Reason, because it is a broken 995 00:47:49,240 --> 00:47:57,600 world and we're trying to learn and grow and get tools in our tool belt that will help 996 00:47:57,600 --> 00:48:00,600 us live this life as we should. 997 00:48:00,600 --> 00:48:04,080 And so any final thoughts Annette before we sign off today? 998 00:48:04,080 --> 00:48:07,880 No, I think I've said quite a bit. 999 00:48:07,880 --> 00:48:14,160 I'm excited to see what God's going to do through this and how He's going to continue 1000 00:48:14,160 --> 00:48:17,840 to lead me through this because it's not over. 1001 00:48:17,840 --> 00:48:18,840 It's a journey. 1002 00:48:18,840 --> 00:48:20,960 Because we're still living on this fallen earth. 1003 00:48:20,960 --> 00:48:21,960 It's a journey. 1004 00:48:21,960 --> 00:48:24,000 And so it is not over. 1005 00:48:24,000 --> 00:48:26,240 Always think of the show, the movie, What About Bob? 1006 00:48:26,240 --> 00:48:28,760 Oh my goodness, you would think of that one. 1007 00:48:28,760 --> 00:48:31,520 Baby steps to the door, baby steps to the street. 1008 00:48:31,520 --> 00:48:32,520 Baby steps. 1009 00:48:32,520 --> 00:48:34,240 Listen, we love you guys. 1010 00:48:34,240 --> 00:48:40,200 I got to give a shout out and a big thanks to Adam Curry and Tina. 1011 00:48:40,200 --> 00:48:41,560 Super excited for Adam. 1012 00:48:41,560 --> 00:48:42,960 We got to talk about this for a minute. 1013 00:48:42,960 --> 00:48:44,960 Oh, he's getting baptized on Wednesday. 1014 00:48:44,960 --> 00:48:45,960 He's getting baptized on Wednesday night. 1015 00:48:45,960 --> 00:48:47,760 Oh, Tina was a mess today. 1016 00:48:47,760 --> 00:48:52,000 She said his baptism is affecting her more than her own. 1017 00:48:52,000 --> 00:48:53,000 Oh, wow. 1018 00:48:53,000 --> 00:48:55,560 And she is really looking forward to it. 1019 00:48:55,560 --> 00:48:57,040 It's going to be beautiful. 1020 00:48:57,040 --> 00:48:58,040 He's so excited. 1021 00:48:58,040 --> 00:49:02,400 I mean, we were out to the movie and dinner with them yesterday and then they stopped. 1022 00:49:02,400 --> 00:49:09,360 We hung out here at the house and his excitement, his exuberance just is so life giving. 1023 00:49:09,360 --> 00:49:11,400 It's going to be a beautiful, beautiful thing. 1024 00:49:11,400 --> 00:49:14,480 And I have the honor of getting to baptize my brother in Christ. 1025 00:49:14,480 --> 00:49:19,000 And so we talked that through a little bit and we're having a night of worship, which 1026 00:49:19,000 --> 00:49:20,000 is going to be super awesome. 1027 00:49:20,000 --> 00:49:21,880 It's all streamed so you can watch. 1028 00:49:21,880 --> 00:49:22,880 Yeah. 1029 00:49:22,880 --> 00:49:26,600 So if you want to watch Adam Curry get baptized and several other, we got lots of folks getting 1030 00:49:26,600 --> 00:49:35,800 baptized, you can go to, well, you can go to our website, which is bridgefbg.com and 1031 00:49:35,800 --> 00:49:37,800 it'll be live streamed there. 1032 00:49:37,800 --> 00:49:40,840 It's also live streamed on YouTube. 1033 00:49:40,840 --> 00:49:46,720 And that's you just go to YouTube and you do a search for Fredericksburg Bridge Church, 1034 00:49:46,720 --> 00:49:49,280 Fredericksburg, Texas. 1035 00:49:49,280 --> 00:49:51,760 There's a bridge church in Fredericksburg, Virginia. 1036 00:49:51,760 --> 00:49:52,760 That's not us. 1037 00:49:52,760 --> 00:49:54,360 So yeah, we have our own channel there. 1038 00:49:54,360 --> 00:49:55,360 So you can find that. 1039 00:49:55,360 --> 00:49:57,240 It'll be live streamed there. 1040 00:49:57,240 --> 00:50:02,960 It's also live streamed on Facebook, but Facebook is just being nerdy about some things. 1041 00:50:02,960 --> 00:50:09,080 They messed our live stream up today because of a, what they call it, some kind of a new 1042 00:50:09,080 --> 00:50:12,320 update they sent out and totally jacked us up. 1043 00:50:12,320 --> 00:50:14,120 But yeah, we keep having a little... 1044 00:50:14,120 --> 00:50:15,120 Not a fan. 1045 00:50:15,120 --> 00:50:16,120 Not a fan. 1046 00:50:16,120 --> 00:50:18,120 So anyway, go, so watch Adam. 1047 00:50:18,120 --> 00:50:19,400 And what's the night of worship? 1048 00:50:19,400 --> 00:50:23,320 It's going to, our worship team, we're going to be cranking it up and playing and just 1049 00:50:23,320 --> 00:50:25,120 worshiping God and freedom. 1050 00:50:25,120 --> 00:50:29,840 It's just a wonderful night of celebration, kind of an Easter afterglow. 1051 00:50:29,840 --> 00:50:31,880 And the baptism waters will be warm. 1052 00:50:31,880 --> 00:50:33,240 We're going to see people get baptized. 1053 00:50:33,240 --> 00:50:35,440 It's going to be a sweet time. 1054 00:50:35,440 --> 00:50:41,560 And also just always want to say big thanks to you that have been checking out our website. 1055 00:50:41,560 --> 00:50:45,680 Several of you have been writing in, sharing your testimonies, asking questions. 1056 00:50:45,680 --> 00:50:47,780 And we always encourage that. 1057 00:50:47,780 --> 00:50:52,040 You can find us at livingupinadownworld.com. 1058 00:50:52,040 --> 00:50:53,220 And you can write us. 1059 00:50:53,220 --> 00:50:55,120 You can do comments on the show. 1060 00:50:55,120 --> 00:50:57,000 You can listen to the show there. 1061 00:50:57,000 --> 00:50:59,720 But we also would encourage you to check out Fountain. 1062 00:50:59,720 --> 00:51:06,000 Fountain is a great platform where you can participate in value for value. 1063 00:51:06,000 --> 00:51:12,040 And when you hear something you like, you can actually encourage us by bumping us, boosting 1064 00:51:12,040 --> 00:51:15,880 us, they call it boostograms and send us satoshis. 1065 00:51:15,880 --> 00:51:19,220 Even by listening to the app, you actually make money. 1066 00:51:19,220 --> 00:51:21,720 You make Bitcoin. 1067 00:51:21,720 --> 00:51:24,400 You can earn it literally just by listening. 1068 00:51:24,400 --> 00:51:27,000 And so anyway, we appreciate your help in that. 1069 00:51:27,000 --> 00:51:32,600 And those of you that have been boosting us and encouraging us on Fountain and Cast-O-Matic 1070 00:51:32,600 --> 00:51:39,360 and other value for value platforms, Podcast 2.0, thank you so much. 1071 00:51:39,360 --> 00:51:40,720 And we just love you. 1072 00:51:40,720 --> 00:51:42,640 We're doing this as a labor of love. 1073 00:51:42,640 --> 00:51:46,640 We're doing it because we care about you, about what you're going through. 1074 00:51:46,640 --> 00:51:51,200 But we care about you because we want to see you grow in your faith life and on your faith 1075 00:51:51,200 --> 00:51:52,200 journey. 1076 00:51:52,200 --> 00:51:53,200 So do write us. 1077 00:51:53,200 --> 00:51:54,960 Let us know you're listening. 1078 00:51:54,960 --> 00:51:55,960 Send questions. 1079 00:51:55,960 --> 00:51:57,200 Send comments. 1080 00:51:57,200 --> 00:51:58,920 We love hearing from you. 1081 00:51:58,920 --> 00:52:00,440 We'll always get back with you. 1082 00:52:00,440 --> 00:52:01,840 Annette, any final word? 1083 00:52:01,840 --> 00:52:05,280 Well, I just want to make sure that everybody knows. 1084 00:52:05,280 --> 00:52:08,280 Please listen to Curry and the Keeper if you want a good laugh. 1085 00:52:08,280 --> 00:52:09,280 There you go. 1086 00:52:09,280 --> 00:52:14,240 I'm excited that they're going to have their podcast this week because I need a really 1087 00:52:14,240 --> 00:52:15,240 good laugh. 1088 00:52:15,240 --> 00:52:16,240 There you go. 1089 00:52:16,240 --> 00:52:18,880 And that, it's just, it's beautiful. 1090 00:52:18,880 --> 00:52:20,440 It's funny. 1091 00:52:20,440 --> 00:52:21,440 It's enlightening. 1092 00:52:21,440 --> 00:52:24,080 It's just, it's a great, great show. 1093 00:52:24,080 --> 00:52:25,080 Fantastic. 1094 00:52:25,080 --> 00:52:26,080 curryandthekeeper.com. 1095 00:52:26,080 --> 00:52:29,400 You can also get Find Among Fountains as well. 1096 00:52:29,400 --> 00:52:30,400 Same platform. 1097 00:52:30,400 --> 00:52:31,400 All right. 1098 00:52:31,400 --> 00:52:32,520 Much love to all of you. 1099 00:52:32,520 --> 00:52:34,600 We want you to live up in a down world. 1100 00:52:34,600 --> 00:52:35,600 That is our challenge. 1101 00:52:35,600 --> 00:52:36,600 That's our excitement. 1102 00:52:36,600 --> 00:52:37,600 And that is our glory. 1103 00:52:37,600 --> 00:52:38,600 And for you, we are pulling for you. 1104 00:52:38,600 --> 00:52:39,600 You can do this. 1105 00:52:39,600 --> 00:52:40,600 You've got this. 1106 00:52:40,600 --> 00:52:41,600 Better yet, God's got you. 1107 00:52:41,600 --> 00:52:42,600 God bless. 1108 00:52:42,600 --> 00:52:51,720 Until next week.